How crazy has this year been though? Was it just me? Is there anyone that feels that way too? I have been seated racking through my brain over and over wondering what to say about the year that 2019 has been to me as a Ray and me as mama Alva. It has really been a mix of a lot.
Flower girls
In February, my little people were flower girls in such a beautiful wedding and they had so much fun. I shared a post of the same.
2nd Birthday
In May they turned 2 but we had no party this time round because they were unwell. Please note that there’s no terrible 2 in my house. It’s terrorism 2 on here 😩 but only because they’re learning a lot of things at the same time and something I read about how fast their minds are developing at this stage so I’m not complaining. I’m actually glad I’m getting to experience this with them. I have taught them lots of stuff and let me tell you Maina, some of these things come back to bite me! I can’t even say no because I taught them, remember!
Koroga Festival
We attended our first concert together (Koroga) with all the matching outfits because they have an extra mum and we had such an amazing time, local girls were impressed. I hope next year we get to do more events together.
School
In September, my minions joined school after bugging me about it for months. See how most of us remember our first days in school and how we followed our parents when they left us behind? That’s not the case in this book imagine. Alma and Ava said bye to me and I couldn’t believe it, I’m the one that ended up crying and waiting for them outside the gate 😭. In fact Ava got there and took out her book and pencil. They loved every single day of school and I kept telling myself it’s the new uniform and shoes but I know deep down, they love school more than I ever did.
Myself
This year has been a lot to me as a mum. Most challenging but I’m glad I’m still here. I have broken down more times than I could ever remember, I have cried in front of my kids and they just sat there and held my hand as I felt so ashamed and prayed that they never remember this moment about me. Somehow I still hope that even if they remember, they will know that it’s okay to let out your frustrations because allowing them to build up from within will just drag you to the pits. I know this, I’ve been there.
I have actually sat and thought that maybe just maybe things would be better if I died or something (I don’t know how, don’t ask me).
While everything was going on well, I lost my job and that has destabilized my last months of the year. The stress that comes with not knowing how you are going to pay your bills is crazy. As they say, it gets better and we can only hope that it’ll be the same in our case.
My family and friends
I’m very proud of myself because this year I’ve made a number of friends. My babies have gained aunties and a grandpa as well. My friends have showed up for us every single day, held our hands, made us feel loved and cared for every single month of the year and I’m very grateful.
Thank you to everyone that has cared for us and supported us, for all the constant love and kind words. This goes to everyone that has bought us yoghurt as well 😁. We don’t take it for granted. Alma, Ava and I are grateful. I hope next year I can constantly share a lot more about us and our growth. To a better year ahead. Cheers 😊
Love,
Ma Alva